Another exercise in self improvement I have been putting some serious thought into. So, I will pose the question to you, "If you were to meet yourself and spend extensive time with yourself, would you like you?" I thought about this for a while last night. I came to the conclusion that I would not like hanging out with myself as much as I should. Obviously, we would relate on similar interests, but as far as personality and chemistry go, not so much. I used to have a much clearer idea as to who I was and where my life was headed. I was more social and optimistic. This resulted in more friends, more fun, and peace of mind. So, now I am going to change those things about myself that I am not happy about. First off, Im going to be more positive about the things I can't change. I am going to accept what comes and find the good in it. I'm going to let things go more easily as well. I tend to have a bad temper sometimes. Instead of getting angry with others, I'm going to put myself in their shoes and attempt to understand their motives or intentions. Now, comes the tough one. I started smoking when I was 15. I am now 27 and have kept the terrible habit. Im going to attempt to quit or atleast slow down. I want to be healthier. Finally, I want to slow down on the drinking. Im not over the top or belligerent. I don't ever get really drunk or black out. But, I know I would feel better if I toned it down a little. In highschool I leaned towards more natural means to wind down. I might switch back to that. It made me think as opposed to drinking which just numbs my mind or makes me tired.
Anyway, I hope you think about the question too. Its interesting to analyze yourself as much as you analyze others.
Very good question to ask buddy, I suppose it's one we all have to ask ourselves sometimes and the answer never pleases me. I know I would be disgusted in myself if I ever met me. I know for a fact I wouldn't like me if I met him at all, nor would I like any of my family either if I wasn't related to them. It's weird how things turn out.
ReplyDeleteAlso maybe you should tone down on drinking. I'm considering it so I can understand your motives for feeling the same.
Thanks for the response man. I have been drinking about 2 to 3 beers a night lately. I just don't want to become dependent on it. For the first time in as long as i can remember, my schedule is easy and relaxed. So, I've been indulging more than I should. I'll let you know how the cut back treats me. Best of luck to you.
ReplyDeletehaha. I feel that way too sometimes. I wonder who would win.
ReplyDeleteI'd probably fight myself over the computer
ReplyDeleteThe real problem for me would be when modern warfare 3 comes out. The brawls over the big screen would be vicious.
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